When I woke up this morning the cool northern breezy autumn was standing on my front door. I was excited, becuase here in florida we have 4 week of winter and 50 weeks or summer and we dont normally have room for spring and autumn. I didnt want to go to work becuase I just wanted to hang out outside all day, but I did. I finished work quickly, where I came home and helped my father with some chorses. Then I saddeled my horse up becuase this is what I really was wanting to do all day. I left my horse in the stall the day before becuase it looked like it was going to storm, and so when I saddeled her up I could feel that she was going to by hyper, little did I know how much. I decided I would hit the orange grooves and trot around for awhile and try to get her muscles warmed up from being under cold stiffness over night. She acted well in the orange grooves, but when I got to my pasture to work on my jumping she bought bucked me off 3-4 times. She refused every jump I lead her up to. I was getting agravated because I wanted to really work on jumping becuase of the nice weather she ended up ticking me off badly, I got off her and lounged her over the jump at a gallop 20-30 times until she broke a sweat.

     I got off annoyed. I made myself inside where my sister and I decided to go to a movie, we both wanted to see the cute little horse racing movie "Dreamer". Though everybody can predict what happens at the end of every horse racing movie, its always nice to pretend you dont.

    On my way home I discovered a herd of tail gaiters migrating down the same way I was. 3 drivers in a row rode my ass all the way home, which really annoyed me, becuase I never go the speed limit I always go at least 5-10 miles over and so I often slammed on my breaks to get these people off me. My last encounter tryed to pass me where I swirved over to piss him off and prevent him from jumping ahead of me, he managed getting in front of me, then he slammed on his breaks to piss me off and I just jumped a grass ditch at 80mph and jumped in front of him, he was quite mad and I relieved some much needed road rage.

      I will be leaving to Daytona for 3 days, a cold beach is never fun, but perhaps I run into some cool partying snow birds while Im up there. I am not really looking forward to going though, I think I will just pack up some homework I should have done and work on my german. Wish me luck and perhaps a little sunshine, I will not jump in the ocean at 65 degrees, thats freezing to true blue floridian.

      I have been dwadling on the idea of going to England sometime next Summer, I have been trying to think of all the different reasons why I should go. I will be going to New York most likely for my graduation and then I leave to Germany again for a year and so I am thinking it wouldnt be good to travel so much, but is too much traveling actually bad for you? I dont think so, and plus this trip to England I am trying to talk my friends into joining me. And plus it would be for education reasons. Its a week long combined training camp under the supervision of gold medalists. hmm... maybe i will bring thought to mind again later on.

     Man I could kill for some french toast. :rools:: okay i think i will make french toast. I wonder if they eat french toast in france, i heard they dont. just like german chocolate cake was actually made in texas. what about belgian waffels and english muffins, what is the reason to call these things after places if they dont come from those places and espicaialy the biggest contradiction, the hamburger dosent come from Hamburg Germany, Turkey didnt come from Turkey, and French Fries are not French. What is up with these nationality imposters? Do you remember a few years back when everyone wanted to rename the french fry into the freedom fry, that was pretty gay lol.

 Tru  

    Today starts Autumn/Thanksgiving break, and I am not feeling so excited about it as I thought I should have been. Friday I was excitied when I came home from work, for a small but gigantic suprise for me in the mail. It was a very adorable letter from my Julian. I ran to my grandmothers house with excitment and confessed how much I loved him and she was excited for me as well. But this night did not turn out to be nearly as great as I had intended it to be. As the rest of the night and weekend had crashed down with an intence family crisis that plumaged me into a very hard-falling depression. I tried many a times to lift myself out of the slippery mudhole by preoccuping myself but I found myselftaking 2 steps forward and 1 step back. Sometimes vice-versa. I really was looking forward to feeling in for Samantha at work so I could scrape up extra cash this weekend but I had to call in becuase there was no-way I could sustain alot of work when I kept spasing from highs and lows.

      Today though I ignored to subject all together and spent today for me. I cleaned and cleaned and cleaned, and then I rode for about 2 hours. I wanted to practice some german but I didnt get around to it. I amy do it later tonight for I want to work out for at least an hour before it gets to late. If I didnt mention I am a bit of a health freak, well then now you know. I dont take it to extremes but I feel guilty if I dont run at least 2 miles per week, and I cut as much saturated fat possible from my meals, which means I really try to avoid fryed foods and fast food.

      Well, thats about it, hopefully some excitment may arise, which I am suppose to goto Daytona Beach for thanksgiving and that deffintly should release some tension. Write you guys later,
peace out my home"page"dawgs (i know butt pirate gay^^)

Tru-

damn the wicked water of salt that so dares to seperate two that equal a unique power even greater than the great mass of ocean herself. Only one object do the two have in common that is direct from eye to eye; the unsenceable line that runs from pupil to pupil; iris to iris and that would be the great moon and sun that shine high above them both at this precise moment. They guide them through the night and day and its one connection an ocean cant steal away. There is only one sun and only one moon that belongs to this earth and it just happends to be the same "natural life bearier" on both sides. She cant catch sight of the same street or tree, cloud, or mountain he witnesses through his eyes, but the same light illuminates their surroundings day in and day out, and they will sleep together under the same rock in the sky tonight.

/\/\onica/ Tru

Part 2 Saturday

     The next morning I was awoken early to get ready to leave for a preplanned family outing to Seaworld. My mother was given free tickets and deicded to take us all the to a somewhat boring Themepark. I had been there many time before a few years back, but I gave it a try anyways.

      Seaworld actually ended up to be a load of fun. My sister , Kari (12), and I took off in our own direction opposite of the other part of the family, and made our way to the ride area. Only one roller coaster resided in the entire themepark (Kracken) And it actually is one hell of a ride. Its huge and fact and really alot of fun. And I could have ridden 3000 times in a row. But after riding it 3 times in a row (since the themepark was abnormally slow) we skipped on over to a water ride and rode it a few times. We then went for lunch. We danced with characters, had our faces painted, and had drawings made. We then looked at some of the exhibits and animals. And then headed back to the rides again.

      The day was short and exciting, but my feet, like after many themepark days, were killing me. My family stopped by Checkers on our way home for a quick bite of dinner, and I collapsed at home with fatigue.

    Sunday I spent reviving, riding, and being very lazyyy....

     I skipped monday and tueseday school in order to claim one of the greatest victories to be given out. U2 tickets. I always liked u2 music but didnt have much geat respect for the band till Imet Julian. Of course, I feel like i am not worthy enuff to even try to win the tickets since julian spent forever trying to purchase tickets to the show and the tickets were sold out in less then in hour, i have this great feeling if i try to win them i will, and if i go i will want to die becuase i dont want to really claim them and go without him. I was hoping if I could win the tickets like monday or tueseday maybe a miracle could happen and I could talk the radio station in to flying him over^^ i know im thinking way way way far-fetched, becuase i dont even have the tickets, but i love to think the famous "what if" just "what if: i did and "what-if" he could. see i dont think i could be happy going to something like a u2 concert without him. **sighs** i dont think i can do anything without him blahhh........ okay whatever, i will continue to play and try to win. We will see what will happen after and if I even win^^ Sometimes I get so wound up and optimistic about things like this, but I had 7 phones next to me waiting 80 minutes non-stop for the back to back play, but it sadly never came. I cant skip tomamrow too, so I will rely on mini-radio and my single cell phone, wish me the best of luck. I will need it!!!

bis morgan,

tru